Sometimes, all one seeks is someone who understands. Because everyone leaves, EVERYONE bloody leaves. Why must people leave? Why can't they stay? Why can't the people I like, I love, I appreciate, stay? It's like a bloody stupid joke. I'm not even asking to be appreciated or liked in return. I just wish to be together with everyone. I don't want to leave. Neither do I want anyone to leave. I've been through this once. I don't want to go through it again neither do I wish anyone else to go through it. Yet I cannot deny their fate. I know He planned something great for them, for me. This is a necessary step in their journey of life. But I just cannot accept it, the pain...

I don't enjoy winning, winning is no fun at all. I wish I can see the beauty of nature, of people, of objects. I wish to help them become stronger, more powerful, better people. No, not because I'm some sort of saintly person. But out of selfishness. Seeing happiness is the only way for me to be happy. I want to capture it, build it, present it to other people. It is the only right thing to do in my world. Or maybe, I'm just making it up, lying to myself.

Hahahahahahaha! Who knows? Who cares?