This got to be one of my most horrible performance in recent time... My focus was bad, light control unsatisfactory, composition poor... Though there are many things working against me, but hey, no excuses.

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I hate goodbyes, I really do. But that's just part and parcel of life... Of my life at least. I guess it's time. But it is never the time. It is always a bad time to say goodbye but we will finally need to.

I have completed my mission, my obligation as a member, as a friend. Now it is time to complete my next assignment, to help someone else, my closest of friends who needs me more.

Sorry that I view life like a big RPG game with missions and tasks, but that's the best way to describe a thing like this.

So with goodbye and good wishes to your future, I shall wish a good future for all of you. I wish that He will guide your every food step, every action, into a future that he has crafted only for you. In my darkness, you are the only lights. I hate to leave but maybe this is the only way I can learn to shine for myself.

Ciao!

Batman... Mmmmm... Maybe I'll go watch this movie. I heard there's mixed reviews but hey, this is the finale of a trilogy.

A quick note. Need to learn to talk. Just thought of this idea, a book that I once read. Less saying, more listening. It makes one more welcomed by others. I need to change. Got to remember!

All of the sudden, I felt how scared I am to lose everything I have now. Talking to Julia (oh, welcome back!), I saw how reluctant I am to go to UK, a totally strange environment, to totally let go of everything and everyone around me.

Am I growing old?! Or maybe I am just spoiled because I find nice people wherever I go.

I like being alone. Yes, I do. But at the same time, I can't imagine myself having no one to talk to. I can't imagine all my friends now one day look  at me like strangers (which is what happened all those years ago)... Haha... Maybe this will stop me from achieving my grandest dreams, but I think it's worth it. I would rather leading a life without great achievements than leading one without friends.

I was reading this Chinese article about unfairness in life the other day. I shall not bore you with the entire thing. In case you wanna see it, it's here: http://blog.renren.com/share/263200340/13777417301?from=0101010202&ref=hotnewsfeed&sfet=102&fin=1&ff_id=263200340. May require account to read.

Anyway, it started out saying things about life being unfair. The writer used himself/herself as an example, saying that he didn't work really hard and seemed to have gotten all the opportunities others would die for. It's true. In fact, I myself testify that. Sometimes, opportunity lands on me. Of course, it's not always the case but sometimes it is.

Later on, the article took a turn and started saying something completely different. Because we have others to thank for our success, because life is unfair, we shouldn't overly dwell on our own ability and instead give thanks to the society and all others who have helped us. Thank them sincerely, with words, action or money. Often, we don't make ourselves what we are today. It is the influence of others.

That way, life will be fair again. With great power, comes great responsibility.

And the best part is, God has told me all about these such a long time ago. To give thanks, to Him and to the world. And with it, one of my dreams: to care for those whom I care and those who have cared about me.

Oh and finally, bean sprout tastes just so good!

I am a idiot. I continue to think that way. I always seem to have this tendency to dismiss facts and reminisce what can only be called history, even right now. Just last Saturday, I received a lesson on how to heal relationships from church. It is truly an inspirational lesson, things like as long as you remember it, you can heal it. Forgive says more about the giver than the recipient and stuff. Unfortunately, it all doesn't work out when the person you can't forgive is yourself. There's just no way I can accept the whole list of stupid things I have done and forgive myself on them. The time has ran out such a long time ago, I should go...

Anyway, relationship between me and my many inner-selves who intend to murder me and rip me to pieces is not an interesting story. Here's something more fun, some photographs done by others. It proves my theory that taking a photograph is only 50% of the work and the other 50% lies in editing. And also that I need to practice on my portraits...

These pictures are not taken by me. They are the work of Shengyu and Jeremy. They are honestly not bad.

You see, I am not the luckiest of people. And that's sometimes an understatement. But at the same time, I am extremely blessed too. Thousands of times I am only left amazed by how much He has blessed me. And well, again with this time.

You see, it didn't start well. Sleeping late editing photos + waking up early to drive to camp means I'm pretty knocked out on arrival. Then the blessing started. Aaron helped me to cover my gate IC and Sim covered my sentry until I woke up. I am really thankful for their help. Would have been a disastrous day if it were not for them.

And there's another thing that's strange. I'm mounting 3 days! I didn't even know that before I arrived. Without enough cloth for change and stuff like that. I thought it would be a suffering. But I was wrong yet again. My duty was extremely relaxed. I had plenty of rest and was not over-worked at all.

However, my misfortune goes on further... Since I go off on Monday, I suddenly become part of Monday's muster parade and my hair was too long. @$#@#$... Hair's too long. I should have cut it the night before with my shaver but somehow, I didn't. Scolded and punished of course, but the punishment was light and I could use it to my advantage.

Oh and some tiny problem with keys. Not punished at all.

Hahahahahaha! A huge thank-you for everyone and my Lord who made all these possible.