Went to Changi beach a few days ago to take some pictures and self-reflect. Though not quite the tranquil location I was looking for, the place is very quiet. Quiet enough for my MP3 to drown out all the other noises passing by my ears. I raised many questions at myself: Exactly how successful can I consider myself to be as of now? Have I spent my life till date in a worthwhile manner? Well, probably not. There are still many regrets I cannot make up to. There are still many aspirations I have yet to live up to. There are many debts I has yet or already can't return. And so so so very many things to be thankful about.

It is funny. When I'm alone at home, all the above seem to bring me a lot of pain. Out here, all doesn't seem to matter anymore. Slowly, as my trousers become wet in the splashes of waves, I think I saw an end to all these. Not an end that I can comprehend yet but an end nonetheless. A solution to the problems, so to speak. Maybe it is to become really f***ed up. Just stop caring about anything other than something simple, let just say "money". Or maybe it is to become truly "enlightened" if such a state exists. Hahahahaha! While seeking a simple answer, I just created another complicated problem for myself.

Anyway, the entire day is summed up into one single picture. There is something inside that I've been seeking for a while but I couldn't find. Now that I'm looking at it, I still can't quite grasp its meaning. But it's ok, I'll continue to seek. And while I'm still looking for it, I know I am alive.