I am a traveller. I came from a foreign place, living in one and will probably end up in yet another one. I find it hard to stop travelling, it's like an addiction. So much to see, so much to experience, it is exciting to feel new things. After picking up photography, this feeling became even stronger as I am finally able to freeze those feeling in time and re-experience them whenever I want to.
It is not without a price of course. Acceptance is sometimes hard to obtain. Every once in a while, people like to express just how much they wish I'm not here taking up their jobs, university spots, whatsoever. Friendship became hard to maintain as well. I became so particular about this word "friend" that I hurt myself and other people (of course I've learned to loosen up). Memories become really valuable as they are the only things that is truly with me when I move around.
I need to move on. Dwelling too long in one place will only cause the negative aspect of travelling to increase while moving forward will increase the positive aspect. It has been almost 10 years living Singapore, I have this strong feeling that I will travel again really soon, probably to a place for tertiary studies. Question is, where? I have two targets in mind: UK and Australia. UK offers better architecture schools and more history in culture for me to study from and experience. Australia offers a cheaper lifestyle and friends. It is a really hard choice. While most people will go for better schools almost immediately, I hesitate when I see the word "friend". I would do almost anything to have another good experience with a friend that is away... Yet, to increase the number of experiences I have in future, I need better degree to get myself a better job... This is hard...
Well, a song for all the travellers include myself, by Laura Shigihara, named Faster. The singer is the one who sang the ending song of Plant vs. Zombies, and the lyrics is quite meaningful to me.
In hopes I follow through on plans, I make
Time is in my hands, but I, keep finding reasons to throw it all away
I have spent my whole life wondering what’s out there
Too afraid to let go and jump in
Something’s holding me back from where I need to go
I wanna be, too alive to sleep
That’s why I wanna go faster
Tired of being still, don’t wanna linger
I’ve got to find the purpose that was meant for me
Cuz if I move any slower, soon my life is going to be over
Before I find the meaning that I seek.
(Meaning that I seek)
I’ve grown so restless in my wake
It’s killing me just getting through, the day-to-day
There’s a hunger inside me, I can’t, explain, to try to find my place
There’s so many pieces of me I’ve left behind
Through my fingers I have let them slide
Now I’m looking back on who I used to be
That part of me, I’ve got to find
That’s why I wanna go faster
Tired of being still, don’t wanna linger
I’ve got to find the purpose that was meant for me
Cuz if I move any slower, soon my life is going to be over
Before I find the meaning that I seek.
Maybe it is normal not to see
But please reveal to me traits that define the person, I should strive to be
I’ll be different from before
I know I’ve got to hold out for more
That’s why I wanna go faster
Tired of being still, don’t wanna linger
I’ve got to find the purpose that was meant for me
Cuz if I move any slower, soon my life is going to be over
Before I find the meaning that I-
-faster
Tired of being still, don’t wanna linger
I’ve got to find the purpose that was meant for me
Cuz if I move any slower, soon my life is going to be over
Before I find the meaning that I seek.