I failed to realize again. Worst fear is usually reality. I should have turned back. I should have polished my skills more. I am still not ready to capture people. Why did I see, that I am still just a beginner. Why did I even try to capture the beauty of others?

Going to stop working with people for now. I started this journey staring at things, not people. And rightfully I should continue looking at things.

Then this sudden realization hit me: I grew up. Though I'm venting my frustration here, I don't feel sad at all. I understand.

Hahahaha... So that's the lesson of my 21st? Just like what you said. Expect everything in life but don't expect anything from it. What you believe is a job well done may just be a total screw up in others' eyes. Does it mean that I should give up my dream too? How would I know that my "help" won't be another's "trouble"?

No, I'm not going back to there again.